Suisocial Tendencies (UPDATE #21)

Hello everyone and welcome to another edition of Me Talking. If there’s one thing so far that college has made me realize it’s how little I’ve grown in terms of social interaction. I mean, don’t get me wrong, of you were to have me write a speech or give a talk in front of a large group of people, I could do it, and I could do it well if I do say so myself. I’ve never had an issue being social in that aspect, but it’s what comes after the speech, or after that talk I find myself struggling with the most. I was told once by someone that my stance, and my facial expression give off an uninviting vibe and some (she meant most) people find that intimidating. I don’t mind being intimidating, but I don’t think of myself as a very intimidating person. I wake up in the morning. I eat a small breakfast. I go to school. I work. And I go home. That being said, why, since I have such a lifestyle so similar to those of my fellow peers, do I feel so alienated when it comes to being relatable? As I dug deeper into this thought I just became more confused as to what makes a conversation worth the time it takes to converse, and what makes someone want to talk to someone, and eventually have those two people become “friends”. I still don’t really know. I mean, in grade school, or even more recently in high school, you see a person wearing a shirt of a band you like, or you see someone whom you’ve had three classes in the same day with, and then you have something to work with, but does that still apply on college campuses? If it does, that kinda sucks. I’m so tired of that. I guess what I’m looking for from college right now (besides studying hard and doing well) is having a “real” conversation with an individual. Just starting a meaningful conversation that isn’t based on some common ground would be good, because I don’t think there needs to be common ground if it’s a real conversation. Kind of like a “My Dinner with Andre” thing, but rather than with old friends, with just some person. I feel as if I need this because I fear I’ve lost all socializing skills, and that’s pretty devastating. 

PET CEMETERY

Hi. In case you didn’t know, I’m currently in my freshman year of college. I’m attending the University of St. Francis. So far in terms of academics I’m very much on top of things, but as you know we’re only about a month into first semester so it’s a little early to really brag about that. The one thing that weighs on my mind when it comes to college is the true atmosphere of the campus I attend. Growing up, I had this template for how college life is supposed to look. Most of that template came from “Animal House” and the once popular TV show “Community” (which I recommend you all watch). That being said, I expected hijinks and high-energy situations to ensue. In my short time here there are no togas in sight, a lack of pre-parties at football games, and no TP-ing in sight. It’s a little depressing. God, I hope I’m not becoming one of those depressed college kids I keep hearing about, that would be terrible. It’s too basic to be one, much too basic.

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